Thursday, June 21, 2012

List of things

Taken from somewhere else, copied and pasted for now and later I'll edit it up. Most of this is exactly how I feel~ x3


'I Have Autism..and this is what I need and want'.........

I want to be loved and accepted.

I wish others to tell me that it’s wonderful that I was born.

I need to see others talking about how happy they are with knowing and living with people with Autism, not despite of Autism and not only knowing suffering.

I don’t want to be seen as the source of my loved ones suffering. I want to know I don’t ruin anyone’s life, I don’t want to be a burden.

When I finally manage to gather my strength to tell you something, listen and know all the effort that costs me, respect what I have to say even if you don’t understand.

 If I think or feel differently it doesn’t mean I am wrong, it doesn’t mean you are wrong, it means that there is not right way of perceiving the world and that my brain works in a particular way.

Do not deny what I feel, do not think I am lying if you don’t understand.
 Don’t dismiss things as me being too sensitive or irrational.
Validate my experiences.
If I can’t hug you it doesn’t mean I don’t love you or that I am insensitive.
If I don’t talk it doesn’t mean I am being rude.

If I don’t talk it doesn’t mean I can’t listen.

Communication is difficult, talking is really difficult.

If I look angry, it’s not always something I can control.

I can’t always control the tone of my voice, I may sound angry when I am not.

Know I can only focus on one thing at a time and changing focus is hard.

If I am happy and really liking a subject don’t say I am obsessed and that this is wrong.

Things that are easy and automatic for you are difficult and need concentration and effort for me, be patient if I take longer or don’t do something.

Don’t laugh at my fears, there is no universal notion of scary, just because something doesn’t scare you it doesn’t mean my fear is silly or funny.

When I want to comfort you I normally don’t know how, believe I am more worried for you than you can think.

I need to know I have a right to exist, a right to be here, a right to be who I am with Autism and all. I can’t be forced to act as someone else. Don’t tell me that everything I do is wrong, that you think every way I act it’s weird, don’t laugh of the things I do, don’t expect that I change everything I need to change for you to think I am worthy of being respected as human.

I need to be taught self-love, pride, self-respect and self-esteem, not how to look others in the eye.

I need to know there is no normal.

I need your patience when I cannot do things or when I do not understand something. Just because you don’t see a difficulty it doesn’t mean it’s not there.

I need to know that it’s a good thing I am the way I am.

I need to know that it’s okay to have Autism, that I am not doing anything wrong, that I am not wrong, I am not flawed.

I want to know that you don’t think having a ‘normal’ child is better.

I am not a broken version of a normal me. I don’t want to be someone that you want to replace with a ‘normal’ person.

If we disagree I will respect you, do the same because people are different, we think differently, we have different opinions, but respect needs to be for all.

I want to honour the beauty and joy Autism brings without denying the struggles.

I wish to be loved not despite Autism, but loved as me, loved just the way I am.

Understand I have a life to be lived, with Autism. Better to embrace it then to fight it.

Accepting Autism, accepting myself as I am is the most satisfying feeling I know.

I know good things and see beauty because of Autism.

My suffering from others attitude is deeper than any frustration that Autism brings.

Autism is part of me and it molds me, if I wish to love myself, I must accept having Autism.

I need to know that you would never change the fact I was born.

I need to know that it’s okay, and things will be fine somehow, that I am beautiful this way and I have a beauty in the deep way I see and feel the world. ♥

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