Well I saw my therapist today and I brought up a lot of hard things with
her. I told her about being tired of a bunch of stuff, like taking the
world's weight on my shoulders and not helping myself. Like getting
overwhelmed and shutting down a lot. etc. We have a lot to work on, but
I'm hopeful. She really 'gets' me and it's such a new feeling, to have
someone really understand me.
She wants to watch clips of videos
or t.v shows with me, so I can try to process the subtle nonverbal cues
in the actors and compare my observations to hers, so we can see where
I'm weak at and where she can help.
So much to work on though.
Being able to taking criticism.
Sticking up for myself.
Learning social 'cues' like body language, expressions, etc..
Setting boundaries so I'm not taking everyone else's problems as well as my own.
Creating a healthy routine...
She
also thinks that I could be over critical of myself, and observing
things that I'm not even aware of. I'm not so sure what she meant by
that, we didn't have enough time to go into it.
She encouraged me
to call her if I need to. She does every week. I always have trouble
calling her but it's something I need to try and work on.
She
said she's glad to see how motivated I am to work on things. And she was
super glad for the present I made her- I made a little 'therapy coupon
book' that she could use on me. Things like proper use of eye contact or
initiating a phone call, or entry into "forbidden territory", one more
probing question, etc. She loved it and said she'd have to re-use the
idea herself. :blush:
I
have the next 2 weeks off without her, but I think I'll manage. I will
call her if I need to, but I can also email. I might call her instead
because I can't read her tone over email and it kinda scares me
sometimes, she's a lot more personable over voice. Her voice calms me a
bit.
